Welcome to my Bloggy Blog

Well, hello everybody,

In my heart, I have always considered myself a writer. I write constantly, and in high volume.  But it has always been for myself only - for my own therapy, or amusement, release of insanity, or the simple need to be creative.  I've never shared it with anyone, for so many reasons.  Some logical and some reeeeally illogical.

For my entire adult life, my doubt and insecurity led me to shred and destroy (literally burn) hundreds of journals with countless numbers of poems and writings. It was therapeutic to burn the pages where I fought depression by emptying my troubled mind onto paper.  But for my creative endeavors, I simply didn't think they were good enough to share, so I unceremoniously threw them in the fire too. I would read amazing books by amazing authors and think, "I'm not a writer.  I can't do that."  It's been the only goal in my life to which I have consistently, time and time again, given up.

So while I may have written 7,000 pieces, what I have now is about 10.  Not because these were set aside as the best, or my favorites, but because I typed them on the computer, saved them to a folder and forgot about them.  It will be hard not to notice that besides "The Chateau," these were written around the same time, a few years back, in the throws of a bad depression.  Which, thankfully, the writing helped me to control.

I only share these (few) writings now because I have always believed that art needs no purpose except to be of pleasure, need, survival, or expression to the artist. And it's with that spirit that I finally shed this suffocating skin to behave as I believe. Also, I dream of being a writer and my dream will not stay quiet any longer.  I want to be a writer in practice, not just in my heart.  Perhaps I will fail badly, but perhaps not.  Either way, I am exhausted by my not trying.

So, I've thrown these past remnants of my writing onto this blog, and from here on out, I have no goal for this site except a house for my rambling thoughts and writings and dreams.  Although it is a completely selfish act, I do hope that you enjoy what I share.

Toodles!